Thursday, February 14, 2013
He amazes me with his insights. He's thinking of Mothers Day already, asking me what I might like because he noticed I gave away my last gift of candies to him and his sisters. I thought I liked them, but after a few I just didn't. Now he's worried. Now what will he get me? He's such a thoughtful boy!
He needn't worry. Everything he does for me is a gift.
He was the first this morning to give me a Valentine. A piece of notebook-lined paper. Cut ever so carefully into a heart. Saying "Happy Valentines Day Mom and I love you very much". He's a man of few words. But the words he writes are more than enough!
They are very heartfelt!
We had a visitor today and I needed to talk. Noah sat by my side. Always animated, he was making his many little arm and leg movements next to me. Letting out a sweet little sound here and there. While watching me as I talked. Watching me closely, intently, sitting along side me. Tom saw, he was watching Noah. Tom told me later that Noah was really studying me as I talked.
So for him to sit, to watch, and be interested in my every word. Listening as I talk to another person...........is huge. He is learning who his mommy is. He wants to know me. He is learning he is a part of me, not the guest.
With his good behavior and his quiet patience. He is loving me. And he is learning to love me.
I can't make him love me.
I can give him love. I can hope he'll love me. He has to be the one to want to love me.
In his beautiful Country his Baba taught him love. Volunteers at the orphanage who noticed/cared about- him- taught/gave him love. Because these precious people loved him, he willingly accepted my love. But he did not have to love me back.
And today I am so humbled, because he does. He does choose to love his momma.
Today, was a Happy Happy Valentines Day! filled with LOVE!