Friday, November 2, 2012
The stress of finding Jacob's brain surgery scar and the rush to figure things out for him. Just slammed me to the floor. I grieved heavily over this and now, the stress takes its toll. This is not a good time to be sick with a baby coming.
Baby? Did I say Baby? (I pinch myself over and over, YES BABY!!)
Oct. 2 our Social Worker was coming to see our 3 boys and start our new Home Study. We were exhausted, but excited to get our next Home Study started. The 3 boys had been home 2 weeks and we were still working on our new normal! It was easier because we were more prepared. We'd done this before. Julius and Pauly were well bonded to us.
Our MN agency is FANTASTIC!! (Yeah!! Crossroads Adoption!!) When confirming her visit; our SW mentioned that she heard about a baby with DS due early November. She thought we could get our HS done quick enough. YIKES!!
Tom was still pouting about not going back to BG. (It looks so sad when he pouts.) He really didn't want to hear about it. He said it was probably a boy. (But Tom! It's a baby!! LOL!!)
It wasn't a boy! It's a GIRL! :o)
Another family had first choice. We kept plugging away on our Home Study thinking maybe this is our baby? It was hard to hope!
And then WE were the family! They backed out.
We had to RUN! to finish up everything!
Forms- Fingerprints- PHYSICALS for 15 of us!!
References have been lost. We are still missing 2 that were sent October 12th??!! Oh my. :o(
Fed Ex-ing things as fast as we can afford.
I try not to worry, this adoption is a gift from God. He knew! He is giving us the gift of a baby girl. We did not plan this. We had no idea. We were not on any waiting lists. We were still hoping for BG.
Everyone knew how much Tom wanted to go back to BG.
God has other plans. Oh! how foolish I feel. Once again, me running around like a silly little ant, trying to "make" things happen. Begging people, not praying/trusting His ways enough. Everything God has done in my life has been so much better than anything I could have ever tried to make happen, or hoped for. God is so good!
I'd often thought that our baby Joy would be our only daughter with DS. I miss her every day. I LOVE~ ADORE my boys with DS. But when Tom got us thinking about a girl, I couldn't help but wonder, would she maybe have DS? Because we were looking for Special Needs, no specific Special Need.
Thank You Precious Lord, for all good gifts come from above!