Julius' first birthday with us was a bittersweet day. Grandma sent him his first ever birthday card, followed by Hope.
First I mourned the years he has not been here. Especially the year of his birth, the day of his birth. I wanted to be there. When he was not taken home by his birth family. I wanted to say "I'll take him! I want him!"
I do know what it's like not to be wanted. My earthly father thought I was not his birth child. He did not want me. It's a painful way to grow up. I forgave him years ago. But I still carry the wounds.
I know what it's like to find out that God WANTS to be my Father! My real Father, my perfect Father. The joy and relief is overwhelming! Even though I was only about 9 when I found out! From that day on I knew I was really loved! I still feel the JOY!
I also know what it's like to have an un-expected pregnancy. When I was 46 and found out I was pregnant, with a 2 y old,a 1 yr old and newborn (adopted) at home with our (adopted) teens. I questioned God. And then turning 47 when he was born. It was hard. It was physically hard! Mentally hard! But as hard as it was, emotionally I could not leave him.
I'm not judging Julius' precious birthmom here. Just stating these things can happen to any of us.
I spend so much time preparing for him and his 2 new brothers, I usually don't have many emotional days. I just keep very busy.
If you could see the look on Tom's face when he describes to people how "perfect" these 3 boys are to him, you'd cry too! :o) They are SO LOVED right now! Especially by God!
She's 2 weeks younger than Noah, and more that twice as big. She has been loved and cherished by everyone- her birthmom who placed her here-us-her siblings. She is filled with joy in the Lord!
I didn't have a very good recent picture, but this is Hope, our 4th June birthday kiddo. She turns 19! She was never rejected either, her birthmom loved her-we love her-her siblings love her! She brings great joy and happiness wherever she goes! (she took this photo on her cell)
I love the thought of our boys growing into Christian men. Sharing God's love with others! What a blessing from God!!